Thursday, October 23, 2014

Book Review: Someday, Someday, Maybe

I liked this book. I have to admit I picked it up because it's by Lauren Graham whom I fell madly in love with during her years as a Gilmore Girl.

Usually I hate when celebrities write any book other than an autobiography. Mostly because I feel they've taken up enough famous space and they should leave the writing to the tortured.  Plus I imagine it's a much easier process to get published when you're a celebrity than us peasants. But.... I made and exception to my own rule. Mostly because I'm terribly sleazy.

I liked this book. I didn't love it. It is fiction yet I imagine she inserted many of her own experiences in it. It is about a struggling actor in New York in her twenties. This book had a youthful flare and a hopeful message about achieving goals and dreaming big.

I'll give it three out of five stars and mark it as light chick read.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

It's Been Awhile

Do you ever get so off track you let yourself sink deeper and deeper into your procrastination because it's easier that way? Well that's what I've been doing.

Sometimes I have this warped idea that if I can't do something perfect than I don't want to do it at all. I've been this way since I was a little kid. It has ridden me with anxiety and limited me significantly. However I heard a saying months back and it's been festering within me, "Anything worth doing is worth doing badly." -Julie Hanks.

When I heard these words from this self proclaimed 'recovering perfectionist' I let out a breath of air. It was like I had finally received permission to let myself proceed without the worry and burden of perfection.

So I guess that's the backstory as to why I haven't visited this blog lately. I always want things to come out perfect. I'm trying to let that go.

When I was in Elementary school I was an excellent speller. In fact I aced every spelling test for years. When I say I aced I mean I scored 100% on every single spelling test from about 2nd grade to 6th grade. Never misplacing a single letter. I remember having pretests. The teacher promised if we aced the pretest there was no need to participate in the final test. I never took the final test. Never.

In fourth grade their was an accelerated spelling program, basically we just got a different set of vocabulary words than the rest of the class. The teacher thought I would be a perfect fit for the program. I was in. Yet, the words were appropriately more challenging and I knew I would't be able to maintain my 100% status I had become known for.

I remember being constantly nervous. I would worry about the spelling list before I went to bed and most of the time my worry would keep me awake. My mom continually had to calm me down as a kid. She would lay me down, stroke my forehead, seeing the worry on my face she would say, "You've done everything you can do today. Now it's time to sleep." I would almost tear up each time she said this to me. To be quite honest in my adult life I have missed her nightly assurances.

There came a point in where my mom could see the pressure I was putting on myself was too much. We decided it would be best for me to longer be a part of the accelerated spelling program. My mom actually came to the school and talked to my fourth grade teacher about it. Mrs. Williams acted as if it was no big deal and allowed me to go back to the standard set of spelling words. Funny to see what had tormented me was actually quite minor.

However the lesson I'm trying to derive from this experience is not minor. It is the truest representation of how my need to be perfect, to get 100% held me back from learning more and being challenged. What if I had allowed myself to be brave, continue with the harder words and accept a 90% or an 80%? Can you imagine?

Monday, May 19, 2014

Book Review: Goodnight Nobody

Oh I don't know I just keep coming back to Jennifer Weiner. With reading I like to fluctuate between heavy and light. You know kind of like monthly menses. I have to mix it. This was a light read. I do believe Jennifer writes the same character over and over agin. But you know what? I almost always relate to her main character. I get the characters insecurities and how the she makes fun of people in her head all the time.

The main character in this novel had lost herself in motherhood. She was having a bit of an identity crisis. Left her job, became a stay at home mom and found herself in a world unfamiliar and down right scary. She didn't fit in with the other suburban housewives.

When she finds her neighbor murdered she herself uncover the mystery, but drives herself nutty in the process. We learn that the real mystery was within herself. The book ends unresolved. I know some people HATE that, but I kind of life it. It allows the reader to make up their own mind, create their own ending. This was one of Jennifer's older books and I honestly think she's getting better with time. I've said this before and I'll say it again Jennifer Weiner gets me. Jenn, how about lunch? I just know we could be best friends.

Some Writing Goals

Perhaps you are one of my lovely readers and you have come here to hear my take on what Andi Dorfman did on her first episode of the Bachelorette. If you are here for that I thank you. You are a sweetheart. I will be writing a review and will shamelessly be making fun of her last name. I will mention that I feel she is shopping around for a new last name rather than a husband. Wouldn't you be doing the same?

So here's the deal. I have written and reported on this train wreck of a show for more seasons than I care to claim. I feel it's time to get this stuff published or to move on. As my mom would say, "Pee or get off the potty."

I will be submitting my review to ksl.com. As soon as I heard they were adding a humor section to their news page I felt it was worth a try. I made a promise to myself to invest in a few writing risks in the year of 2014. This is one way in which I am being true to myself. I do not know if they will publish it I also don't know if I can keep it clean enough for ksl standards. So many unknowns.

I hope they will take the bait and if they do I will keep reviewing this show and in the process becoming dumber rose by rose all for you, all in the name of entertainment. Thank you for reading.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Book Review: The Bedwetter

With a title like that how could I resist? My sister actually bought me this book for my Birthday. It was perfect as I had been meaning to get around to it. I've said this a time or two on this blog but I love to support women in Comedy. I've read Tina Fey's Bossy Pants and Rachel Dratch's Girl Walks into a Bar so it only seemed natural to read another autobiography by a female SNL comedian.

So I'll just say this. I loved it. I laughed out loud. I found her personal story fascinating. I enjoyed the way she spoke about her family. Family shapes us more than anything and her love for them came oozing out of this book as she softly made humorous puns at each of them. Our connection to the family we came from constantly amazes me.

One conversation she had with her dad stuck out to me. She was attending NYU during the day and trying to be comedian by night by working at a comedy club. Her dad called her up and said he would't tell this to her sisters but,  "Sarah you seem like you really know what you want to do with your life. You have my permission to quit NYU and pursue comedy full time. I will pay for your rent and utilities in Lou of your tuition because I believe in you." This sweet conversation touched me. To have a crazy dream like being a comedian and then to have someone tell you that they believe you can actually do it. Few things are as strong as real honest heart felt encouragement.

If you want a good laugh and can stomach some potty humor you should give it a read.

Cheers to Sarah Silverman!

Friday, April 18, 2014

St. George Report

Mason and I took off to Sunny St. George for our 7th anniversary. It was the perfect get away. No kids. No schedules. Warm weather. We ate way too much. Read a bit and went for a long bike ride. 

Every year on our anniversary I create a timeline highlighting a few significants the year has granted us. I hand the sheet of paper over to Mason on our Anniversary. He laughs and then we file it away. I can't wait to sit back with Mason and read 50 of these timelines. Mason it's been another memorable year. We've lived in two homes. We have two beautiful children and a life I'm astonished by. For this year's time line click on read more.

Book Review: The Kitchen House

This book follows a girl who was orphaned and then raised as an indentured slave. An interesting premise. The color of her skin eventually leads her away from the life of slavery and into a slave owner. It emphasized the stories of women. Told of their misfortunes and lack of rights. I've read quite a few fictional tales revolving around this topic but this one had an original slant.

It was a good story. A story that needed to be told, but I've got to say due to the heavy subject matter it was rough to get through. My heart was aching for what women had to go through. My gratitude heightened for living in the time that I do. It was well written. When I discovered how much research the author put into this story I appreciated it all the more. She lived in the place she wrote about, conducting interviews with the ancestors of slaves and tried her best to immerse herself in what use to be. I'm glad I read it, however I had to make my next book as light and funny as possible to recover from it.